booooo. my pc's down. was using it on saturday night and it just died on me. just like that. and it couldn't be started from then on. thank god for work. though of course i'll be msn-ing when the whole world is out enjoying the gss or napping. or whatever. argh. i don't wanna have to spend extra when i'm not getting a full month's pay! grr.

went to visit a good friend on saturday with 5 other friends. sigh. it's just so sad that someone i know is actually having that. it's too... surreal. and i can't remember who but there was someone amongst those 5 who said something which reminded her of that and mel and me just looked at one another. that roll eyes kinda look? anyway, we were slacking at her playground, talking and talking about grown up topics. and then her dad interrupted and said she had to go home. hugs exchanged, and the whole thing ended on a sombre note. g, si tu crois que c'est fini, jamais!

bb dinner this saturday! it's a pity g can't join us. but we totally understand. sigh. ah well. i think i'm doing my hair. secrets for now though. akan datang: photowhores galore!

it's like you're a drug
it's like you're a demon i can't face down
it's like i'm stuck
it's like i'm running from you all the time

and i know i let you have all the power
it's like the only company i seek is misery all around

it's like you're a leech
sucking the life from me
it's like i can't breathe
without you inside of me

and i know i let you have all the power
and i realize i'm never gonna quit you over time

it's like i can't breathe
it's like i can't see anything
nothing but you
i'm addicted to you
it's like i can't think
without you interrupting me
in my thoughts, in my dreams
you've taken over me
it's like i'm not me
it's like i'm not me

it's like i'm lost
it's like i'm giving up slowly
it's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
leave me alone
and i know these voices in my head are mine alone
and i know i'll never change my ways
if i don't give you up now

it's like i can't breathe
it's like i can't see anything
nothing but you
i'm addicted to you
it's like i can't think
without you interrupting me
in my thoughts, in my dreams
you've taken over me
it's like i'm not me
it's like i'm not me

i'm hooked on you
i need a fix
i can't take it
just one more hit
i promise i can deal with it
i'll handle it, quit it
just one more time, then that's it
just a little bit more to get me through this

iIt's like i can't breathe
it's like i can't see anything
nothing but you
i'm addicted to you
it's like i can't think
without you interrupting me
in my thoughts, in my dreams
you've taken over me
it's like i'm not me
it's like i'm not me...

highlights of the week!

went for champagne brunch at one-ninety last sunday with my mom and stepdad. it was her birthday and also my belated birthday brunch. the food wasn't bad, but i could have eaten more! walked around town and my wishlist just got longer i tell you. i'm gonna get that tommy polo, a lacoste polo and the brown massimo dutti polo come payday! don't ask me what's with me and polos though. i think it's work. haha.

thursday was spent with edna, angel and clive for my belated birthday dinner. was one of my least productive days at work cuz i was kinda excited? that, plus the long weekend. dinner at pizza hut @ marina square. dear clive was late. and he came with a cake in tow! omg. tai over le! cabbed home with them cuz edna had to meet mr biker. but thanks guys! i had fun. no photos though. we took some lah. but they weren't anything good or something. and i repeat, edna had to rush, so we couldn't take more photos. ;)

dinner with a few classmates for another belated birthday dinner. [yes, my birthday was during a bad period] bitched. and talked. like really talked. it freaks me out that our topics now range from our future ideals, marriage, work to other adult topics! oh no. anyhoots, thanks to you guys too.

made impromptu plans to go spice up our nightlife a bit, with another group of friends. haha. reached home at 3.30am and it didn't help that i had french that morning! i have so so so sinned. don't ask why. haha. it was fun though. i enjoyed myself! we should do that more often. whatever that is. ;)

the first lesson of the 4th module for french was yesterday. sadly we couldn't get the same teacher as our previous module. we all really liked her! i'm not saying the new teacher is bad. she's really good. lack of sleep set in and whatever questions which were posed to me, i couldn't really answer. omg. and she'll be like "hafiz, ca va?" and i'll be like "err, ca va, ca va." which totally lacks conviction. [ca va = everything going on fine] one bad point, she doesn't shave. haha.

to digress a little, there was this bitch and her friend who joined us from the kids level of french and so she was trying to see if she was suited to our level. whatever our teacher asked, she'd just tell us the meaning in that don't-you-know-kinda-tone. fuck you lah. during tea break, my lawyer friend was like "screw her lah!" yes, it was unanimous indeed. ugly bitch. hier, la classe de francaise a ete stresse! tres tres stresse!

finally watched brokeback and transamerica. random sex scenes aside, brokeback was just okay. but kudos to transamerica lah! haha. there was this scene where bree [felicity huffman] was soaking in the bathtub after her operation. and her breasts looked damn prosthetic! omg. i wonder if they are bree's or felicity's! i hope they are not felicity's. but it was good! loved it.

plans to shop today shall be postponed. i think it shall be a french homework and revision day! and i just realised, this is my mom's last month in singapore. omg? i'm so not gonna send her off! :(

je suis fatigué. très très fatigué.

it's 1.20pm and i've got 10 mins or so before my lunch break ends. so here i am killing time...

my 21st was relatively quiet. thanks to those who remembered. and to those who were late, forgot and whatever, it's okay. i understand. totally. had lunch with nick. and the only consolation which kinda saved my birthday was dinner with the lovebirds (so so very much in love i tell you!) ash and mel. thanks. and thanks to ash for asking me if i had read "6 million frenchmen cant be wrong!" that was how bloody obvious? hahaha. but thanks! :)

work has been fine. i've got no accounting background but they're willing to teach me. i quite like the environment here. just that the distance's a tad too far. ah well. beggars can't afford to be choosers.

accompanied yousui for her cabin crew interview on saturday. and the deal was that she will accompany me for mine on sunday (since they split up the guys and the girls). so there i was, killing time with the other boyfriends. and no, she's not mine. lol. oh! i met my secondary school friend, who's already with SIA! damn. instantaneously, i was determined to go for the interview on sunday. clothes ironed, shoes bought. i even woke up and bathe! got dressed, had a bad hair day, and i changed out of my clothes and went back to sleep! haha. wth. and now i'm regretting it. ah well.

saturday afternoon. cycling at east coast with the lovey-doveys. cycled to fort road, it's this gay beach which appeared in the tabloids once. seriously. cycled all the way to the far end of ecp and we didn't know where to go from there. so chances of seeing bushes shake had to be shelved. and i tell you, the seat was so hard my butt ached!

might go night cycling and watch planes land this saturday. something which i hate seeing. haha. but ash needs a chaperon whenever he drives! argh. no need lah?!

hafiz, out!