hey man. diana left for melbourne last night. sob. like the whole lot of us went to send her off? surprise surprise. even mr hsieh came? hah. lotsa photo-taking also. passed her the pretty postcard i wrote for her. gave her the gift we bought from her also after signing the rugby ball. talked a lil. played with her lil cuz. apparently her lil cuz likes malay guys? haha. but she was scared of me lei yesterday. oh well. anyway. soon enuff she had to go off. the tears made their entry at the same time. hah. diana's younger sister started crying. like uncontrollably? both her mom's were all teary eyed. and diana gave each of us a hug. my girl friends started crying. i teared i think? aww. somehow my voice just lowered by itself when i hugged her? gosh. dunno why. sent her off to the departure gates. then it was goodbye... sigh.

accompanied kelvin since he hadnt had his dinner. so we just sat and reminisced about the good old jj days. ms tie being the main character of cuz. lotsa imitations. think we were the loudest grp in bk? yeah. spotted some pretty singapore girls too. and some ugly ones. sigh. its getting to me now. i cant wait to start working as a commercial pilot? but let's look at smth nearer. i wanna go overseas. really i do. i miss the sleepless night before my flight. i miss the excitement. i miss UK. i miss wearing triple layer of clothings. i miss my house over there. i miss shopping there. sigh. i wanna go overseas... and get away from singapore.

tried using bluetooth yesterday while on the journey back from the airport. wanted to send kailing a photo i took using my phone to her via bluetooth? so my phone was searching and searching for her. then this shuwen appeared in my phone. so i asked her whether she's shuwen anot. she's like no? so yeah. exciting! we all wondered whus shuwen. gotta be somewhere near. within 10m radius or smth? ::rolls eyes:: a few mins later there was this user called nokia6600. then got er_johnathan also. haha. so fun! its like suspense eventho tt person's like freaking near? fun fun. gonna do tt every mrt journey i'm on. haha.

oh yeah. guess wad i heard on the bus while going towards yishun yesterday? these 2 privates from sembawang air base were talking. this guy was telling his friend tt privates pay will increase by a hundred this coming payday? and there'll be backpay too! backpay's like... lets say ur supposed to get $450 last mth but they only credited $350 into ur acct? so the coming payday u'll receive $100 cuz of backpay? yeah. so if they give us like 2 mths backpay i'll be getting like $650 this coming payday! omg. rich rich. if this is true to begin with.

diana! if ur reading this, this is for you yeah? we all love you! =)

when there's no one else look inside yourself
like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
then you'll find the strength that will guide your way
you'll learn to begin to trust the voice within...

hey... had an ultimately short weekend. grr. went to town at night with cha and diana. bummed around town cuz we had nothing to do. got home at like 11. didnt want to sleep cuz sleeping meant i was a step closer to sunday duty. gawd. ended up sleeping at close to 3 in the morning after ironing all my uniform and stuff. woke up with much dread. was thinking to myself, which idiot will book in on a sunday morning in smart4 sia. me? argh. i bet those nsfs will know i'm going for weekend duty. damn. reached camp b4 8. guard comd was a nice fella. the duty offr was some super on bastard [which was why i hated zamri twice as much].

there was nothing to do at all in camp? naturally the thing to do would be to sleep. sleep i tried. laid on the bed i did. but i still couldnt fall asleep! bah. the weather was too warm or smth? i think i'd still like sleeping on the floor. hah. prowled with guard6 from 2pm to 4pm. didnt want to prowl lah but since the do so on, no choice lor. guard comd even told us to go for TWO rounds. nee soon camp's like freaking huge. imagine a site 10 times the size of jj's sch compound. if not bigger. and its not a flat terrain sorta thing. the band and mdc are housed atop a hill and we gotta prowl there too? thank god after the first round it started to rain.

i like prowling with the guard duty personnel. they'll confirmed know some of my frds at least? which goes to show how microscopic singapore is. and i dont prowl with the same guard duty personnel cuz they take turns to do guard duty? which makes singapore so nanoscopic? hah. the guard i prowled with was actually the jc classmate of 2 of my frds? one whu was my bmt platoonmate and the other my sec sch mate? the fact tt my bmt platoonmate and my sec sch mate were in the same class already makes the world small? err.. geddit? hah. oh yes! another sec sch mate of mine was actually doing guard duty? lol. godfrey tan. i immediately msged grace cuz grace had a crush on him. haha. duh. okok. shant go raving about how small the world is.

went for breakfast at the engineers cookhouse after raising the flag. guess whu i saw! bixian? my sec sch classmate. saw 2 S8 guys. this S28 guy and one arts fella. whoa. jj reunion wor. of cuz i didnt talk to them tho one gave me the eh-u-look-familiar face. hah. yes yes. small world again.

kinda dreaded tuesday cuz i had night duty. again. hah. caught the army experience on 5 last night. saw chi! saw fahmie. saw a few jjcians lah. nice. kinda relived my bmt memories! and yeah. again the guard i was supposed to prowl with was from jj? some stupid nerd lah. he had an equally nerdy twin in jj too? ha. and yes. he knows 2 of my frds. bah. the 2 duty RPs are like supposed to prowl from 11 to 1am. the other RP on duty was one hell of a slacker. didnt want to prowl? but i was afraid the do will like secretly go to the ammo dump and hide himself there to check whether we really prowl anot? bloody hell. we quarrelled? lol. think wad. i'm some pushover ah. basket.

oh guess wad was implemented just yesterday? 100% check on all outgoing vehicles. big shots or not. bloody hell. it used to be a check-if-ur-in-the-mood-slack-if-ur-lazy job! no more standing in the outgoing post too? man they have a fan in there. outgoing used to be my fave job. no more man. anyway now 2 RPs will be doing the outgoing. the line of vehicles gets really long especially during lunch time? was checking this 1sgt's car. we addressed him as sir when he's only a sgt? before he drove off he was like "eh private next time address me as sgt ok?! -sarcastic-" fucker. we called u sir lor. being called a sir is so much better than being called a sgt lah. a sir's ocs trained? duh. cheebeh. totally pissed me off.

sometimes i just wish my anger will just sustain? but whenever i see the person whu got me pissed or whatever my anger will just like disappear instantly? tt kinda sucks. especially in the case of zamri. i was talking to anneson about zamri's fainting spell and all? apparently he's been fainting since sec sch and he's a good actor at tt? so i was all prepared to share this piece of news with my colleagues. haha. mean? u bet. went for lunch with my colleague on monday while zamri was doing spotcheck. came back from lunch and heard he cried cuz my colleagues disturbed him? hah. i bet he cried again today after i went home since my colleague and us found out tt he didnt go to his aunt's on sat[tts wad he told us]. instead he went for a picnic?! bloody hell. my colleague was like all out to make him cry? erm. ok. nothing to say. i can be angry now but when i see him face to face i'll just start being a lil nicer? cant help it. damn. i'm just too nice. and it doesnt pay sometimes...

i drove for miles and miles
and wound up at your door
i've had you so many times but somehow
i want more...

i'm pissed. really i am. farking hell. zamri the bloody fag apparently fainted in the morning yesterday. so serious that he got 2 days mc. we all think he's chao keng-ing. and he's down for weekend duty tmr? but he's on mc right? so how? i'll have to do it. yours truly. farker. so as of now i've got less than 24 hours to myself. argh. bloody fag. i'm not gonna be so nice to him now. u know he's always broke and stuff and will always borrow money from us? but know what he told me early this week? he splurged on this guy he's going after. yes he's gay. a fat one at that. farking hell. i was wrong to let him sign up for a mobile plan under my name. bloody hell. so wrong. i wanna disconnect it. how how? argh. i really want to. he can jolly well get one of the str8 guys he's going after to sign up for him. to hell with him. chee beh...

hey man. the previous weekend was the longest weekend i've ever enjoyed man. ha. went for a life run last saturday at bishan park. my colleague drove me there again. heh. the run started at like slightly past 8am? we sure ran. lol. more like a morning stroll in the park. we all were allowed to go at 8.45am? duh. wth. waste of time. but better than going back to camp for normal duty lah. whew. and guess what happened while i was strolling in the park?! hp in hand. this fucker of an angmoh bumped into me. and his impact was so great tt my hp just flew off my hand and BOUNCED on the tar-rish pathway? fucker. he didnt even apologise lor. argh. expat big deal lah. cheebeh.

was supposed to catch the village with marc but he apparently wasnt in the mood at the eleventh hour. so okay lah. slacked home. slept. got an sms from him in the afternoon. asked me out for dinner. ha. duh. went town till almost 12? i made it in time for the last train luckily. oh! i still wanna catch the village k. tho friends tell me different opinions i'd still wanna catch it.

received my pay on saturday night at about 11pm. checked my pay and i was kinda surprised to see $450? ha. like no deductions nothing? so i withdrew all $450 as a pre-emptive measure. haha. went for bfast with mom on sunday morning. wanted to have pita at bt batok but the shop moved out! sad. ended up going to jurong west for breakfast. yucks. anyway i told her i wanted to get 7610 tt afternoon and she was alright with it. so she agreed to pick me up later on in the afternoon since she was going to town also. and guess wad?! throughout the car journey she was lecturing me! wth?! women? so fickle. i just felt like plugging my earphones into my ear and just listen to my ipod lor. hmph. went to lucky plaza to get my phone. asked around for the cheapest 7610 and the highest trade-in value for my phone [ex rather. lol] i got trade-in offers as low as $150 and as high as $380? what the fuck. when i told the person offering me $150 tt another shop's offering me $380 they were like "go sell it to them -hohum-" bloody fucks. so bochup dont do business lah! so irritated. i got tt from two shops lor? and this shop offered me $180. so i told them the same thing. they instantly agreed to up the price to $380? wtf? so what? ur trying to tell me ur gonna cheat me? bloody fuck. so duh. could have sold my phone to this shop for $400 if not for the scratches caused by the fall. so i had to be contented with $380. got my phone for $820. happy happy. it was like the only brown/black set in the whole of lucky plaza i think. guess wad? tt price was before gst. cheebeh. make urself clear lah! i got tt phone anyway. opportunity cost? broke for the rest of the month. and yes. super bad shopping experience at lucky plaza. bloody fucks. dont go there. ever.

caught ndp on monday. think i saw clive lah. looks like him? not so tall too. haha. after ndp was singapore idol and towards the end of ndp the singapore idol bug got to me and i started singing along to the national songs on tv? hah. anyway i think it wasnt tt exciting as i thot it'd be. the judges suck. cmon. especially tt ken lim. and their comments are like so bland. so cliche. and the worse ones were well. okay. i've seen worse when i was in uk and they showed pop idol over there. hahaha. super funny. but yeah. there were a few good ones around tho. the ahbeng, butch and christopher michael lee. cant wait for the finals. i think it'll get more exciting then. 2nd episode yesterday. the bananaman was dumb. was he thinking he could get in with that? ur bloody head lah. or did mediacorp pay him to like up the ratings? hah. whu knoes man. oh yeah! angel had her 1sec of fame when her face flashed across the tv. haha. s30 angel.

its friday tmr. yeah. weekend's coming! not like i'm gonna shop or smth but the break would be good. duh. today was just sucky lah. i couldnt even sleep for more than half an hour lor. was called to go to the north gate cuz some trailer had to go in by there. mind you the north gate's a good 15mins walk from the guardhouse. and yes. the weather wasnt kind either. but we managed to hitch a ride. heh. after lunch i planned to sleep for 2 hours b4 my next duty? half an hour into my sleep my sgt woke me up cuz he had saikang for me to do! bloody hell. get someone else lah. i was made to go to the ammo dump to get this person to sign for me smth? the ammo dump's like up the hill and a good 15 mins walk. i hitched a ride too from a bandsman's father since he was sending his son to saf band. super nice lei. the ammo dump's like a 100m away from the white house so i told the father he could just drop me off at the white house. but he insisted tt he drops me off at ammo dump? ha. nice. managed to hitch a ride to the cookhouse for another signature too. this time it was a bus. haha. whew. at least i wouldnt be perpiring like some sweat machine and subsequently stink all over. went home at 6.30pm today cuz of some saikang. we were made to re-do the whole tentage. and we took 2 hours. duh. not like we're trained in it right! could at least called us earlier to do it what. sigh.

read streats yesterday and they had an article on lefties. hah. so its true! there are scissors for lefties and righties. no wonder i cant cut properly with some scissors. heh. and tmr's international lefties day! happy international lefties day to me and my leftie friends. and happy 49th to my dad. =)

i wanted you to know
that I love the way you laugh
i wanna hold you high and steal your pain away...

hey man! went over to diana's for the bbq she organised last saturday with some of my classmates and some other jjcians. when we got there i saw this lady whom i thot looks like diana so i assumingly thot it was her biological mom. then she brot us to her apartment and i saw another lady whu looks like her! so i was abit lost. until i asked her. apparently her foster mom and biological mom are sisters?! omg. so cool! haha. had fun. took lotsa photos as usual. brot my brownies too. hahaha. one friend said i'm like super homely? always baking cookies and stuff? aww. lol. anyway diana's little cousin was there. i think she's super afraid of guys can? like no matter how me and kelvin will cajole her nicely into carrying her she will still shy away? i persisted and finally she came to me. haha. heavy man. sooo felt like kissing her. but of cuz i didnt. just reminded me of my dear adit. ha. oh well.

oh! i have 2 weekend duties for the whole month of august? plus one weekday duty. what the fark. weekend duties are normally for those whu kena extras! i've not gotten any lor. bloody hell. and one weekend is this sunday?! the 8th? national day eve? bloody hell. i was there when my sgt planned it and i kinda argued a lil and he was like "i've been nice enough to u cuz u havent had any night duties for month of july." no lor? the reason u didnt put me on any duty for the month of july was cuz of the shit night duties caused me in june. and i reluctantly did a duty which was informed to me only on the day itself due to bad planning and all. sickening. anyway i exchanged my weekend duty with my colleague's weekday duty. so okay lor. gonna give him a packet of ciggies for tt. whateverrrr.

met my pri sch best friend on the train today. was on the way home. didnt want to say hi lah. but he saw me looking so i had to act a lil surprised. haha. went over to talk to him and realised he's now colleagues with another good friend of mine whu was in the same class as us? ha. small world.

rushed home like mad. then went to meet hunky darrell today since he wanted my boots. his body is still as good as ever man. my pre-enlistment gym kaki? hahaha. i havent been gymming lately. but i started working out last week! push ups and sit ups. i shall be disciplined enuff to do them everyday. if not every other day also can. took bus with darrell to bt gombak since i thot of going to my grandma's. lol. got there, her door was opened. i shouted and shouted but no one responded? i dunno eh. lights on and all lor. her cat was in tho. lol. didnt want to stay long cuz wanted to catch amazing race5 at 8pm. hehe.

passed by this handphone shop so i enquired about the price of 7610. selling for $850. without bluetooth set. which kinda sucks. cuz i really wanna try out the bluetooth svc. fun whoa. anyway he was willing to buy my e700a for about $430 to $450? wow. tts like the highest i've found eh. was telling him i might buy 2 7610's since my mom thot of buying it too. then he was like "ur mom's so high end ah?" ha. right.

met this sgt who was from sch of combat engineers. he did guard duty b4 and was the guard comd. so i kinda know him. he just ord-ed last month. met him at bt gombak mrt so talked to him for a lil lil while. he went like "u still at neesoon camp ah?" i'm like "duh?" 20 more months can! lol. nice guy.

staying in tmr cuz friday morning we have to be deployed at 0630h. sian. staying in sucks tho we're sleeping in some air-conditioned office. yes office. lol. nvm lah huh. not like i'm doing any duty. lol. our camp's own ndp on friday. guess wads our attire? no. not our smartest number4. but our unit's engineer singlet and shorts! omg. gross. i loathe wearing singlets. exposing armpits and all. and those shorts are like the running kind? high slit and all. meshy inner lining. yucks. gonna look like some cock lor. grr.

it's not always rainbows and butterflies
it's compromise that moves us along
my heart is full and my door's always open
you can come anytime you want...