remember zamri? my gross, super fat and gay colleague? the one whu likes to chao keng at the expense of others? and i even had to do his sunday duty for him? he's such a fucker. period. bloody hell. his hp line is like under my name lah. [in case ur wondering why i let him sign under my name, its cuz his chao keng acts hadnt started then. he cudnt possibly run away since he's in my camp, i thought] and all along he dusnt allow me to like open and see the bill cuz he claims his dad wants to be the first to see it. and he told me his dad's been paying the bill. so i'm like "okay. no worries" since his dad's paying them.

got a bloody shock when i opened the bill last week. last mth's bill was $370! outta which he only paid $170. outstanding amount of $200. and he lost his phone last mth so he suspended his line? suspension/termination fee = $500. so grand total. and i really mean GRAND total is $706 for this month. fucking hell. i bet his dad hasnt even seen the bill lah! much less pay them. fucker.

so i thot i'd give him a surprise visit to his place since he didnt work on friday and saturday. when i was walking to his place, i saw him? i was like "oh fuck!" and quickly made a sharp turn and hid in a corner. [didnt want to confront him. in case he pleads with me and not tell his parents or smth] waited for him to walk past but he didnt? in the end i noticed his frd looking at my direction? bloody hell. so i quickly walked and made a big detour to his place.

only his grandpa was home then. so i made do with him. me being not so proficient in malay couldnt make much of an impact. darn. made my point anyway. and only after i went to his place was i told tt he dusnt stay with his parents. his parents stay in bt gombak. and the address he gave the guardroom is his grandpa's. clever fucker.

got a call from his cousin just now. he told me his grandma's gonna foot the bill cuz they like dowan to implicate me anymore? he even told me not to tell zamri? i was like "i'll see how. ok. bye." lol. how can he not knoe when he's committed such a grave mistake! bloody hell. all my colleagues knoe about this matter anyway. so whatever. he has to knoe. he needs to be taught. fucker. and how can he unabashedly let his grandma pay for the bill while he gets away scot free and be happy happy? bloody hell. fuck the fucking faggot!

hey. i'm back. heh. last week this time i was in jakarta. man it felt good just to leave the country and not having to report to camp! oh man. 18 more months to ord. anyway! flight was delayed for an hour. so ended up shopping around and got myself a bottle of clinique happy for men. plus moisturizer which came free. heh. boarded the plane and there was this dark-skinned stewardess whu was standing at the entrance greeting the passengers tt sorta thing? i thot she was indonesian seriously? but she spoke in fluent dutch to her colleagues! [i still think she's indonesian anyway] then all of sudden i had this thing to take up dutch? whoa. imagine me speaking fluent dutch. omg. it just ups ur image and of cuz marketability? so yeah. i'm gonna take up dutch. if not french. hope tt'll put me in a good stead when i apply for SIA! hah.

that aside! reached jakarta in the evening. couldnt find my aunt cuz she was waiting at the wrong arrival hall? right. adit was all shy and everything. hah. silly boy. he's no longer botak now tho? heh. cutieee.

anyway i think my trip to jakarta was one of wrong timing? firstly my uncle's so busy with his work and secondly my aunt's late sis was very sick. so yeah. wrong timing lor. plus my uncle's chauffeur is new. and he so doesnt know his way around jakarta? so tt kinda restricted us to shopping malls which he knows only? bah.

got myself two tees and a pair of berms. oh. and two bottles of perfumes. hah. clive wanted me to get kenzo for him? the 50ml was selling for 60 bucks. but i found a super good deal?! this indonesian sasa-equivalent shop was selling the 100ml bottle for about 65 sing dollars? omg. initially i was kinda suspicious. so i took a sample from metro and a sample from tt shop. sat down for 10 mins comparing trying to smell out the difference? ha. cudnt tell the difference i got that for him. tts like a darn good deal sia. and i bought my kenzo the next day when i was there. lol.

adit! he's like super cute. tt cheeky lil boy. was saying his chauffeur dusnt knoe the way right? so he needs my aunt to like direct him and stuff. then once when we were in the car adit was saying "i'm sure he dusnt knoe his way to our destination now"... and when the guy made a wrong turn adit was like "see! what did i tell u just now?" hahaha. he's like 4+ 5 and he already makes such cheeky comments? lol. and he's like so proficient with the pc given his age? yeah. hah. and he hates doing homework! haha. when my aunt rushed him he was like in tears? haha. awww. and he used to be botak remember? now he wants his hair longer. more good looking he said. haha. and when my aunt suggested to him to go for a haircut at a hair salon which he didnt quite like he said smth like "their haircut on me doesnt look good"? hahaha. so cute lah...

every morning we'll send adit off to his sch. then while waiting for the chauffeur we'll like hang around the school lah. some pre-sch erm.. sch? omg. if u wanna be a taitai pls send ur kids to kinderland? the moms of those kids are all like indon taitais man. pretty pretty and rich rich. [mery, maybe u'd like to consider kinderland? hah] and yeah. i think indon girls are pretty. they know how to dress and all. no minahs or whatever. and they have class! whee! [mery, beware? lol] oh yes. and i dig the indon accent! heh.

and this song's for my late aunt...

if i could get another chance
another walk, another dance with her
i'd play a song that would never ever end
how i'd love love love to dance with my aunt again...

sigh. i'm gonna delay my update for a few days. just received news that my tante's younger sis JUST passed away. shocked. like.. i just came back last night and she just passed away? the worst part was tt i cudnt visit her cuz the hospital she's in is like a good 3 hours drive from jakarta? sigh. when i was in jakarta ages go.. like in primary sch? she was there to entertain me and all. and now she's gone. sigh. life's so precious, no? =(

hey man. i'm back. heh. went to extend my passport at cmpb last saturday since its my long weekend. kinda surprised they extended it till year 2012? it used to be for a year only. hence the frequent trips to sir just to extend the passport? went to jb with my mom on saturday evening. my first trip overseas after like so long! never mind the fact tt its malaysia. it feels good to leave singapore. especially when ur serving the country man. anyway! i'm going to jakarta on the 15th of this month! yeah man. finally i get to step on a plane after 9 mths! adit adit adit... hehe.

zamri's [my gay fat colleague] mom apparently's diagnosed with breast cancer? true or not i do not know. but he's happily taking this chance to make use of his compassionate leave. he's like supposed to have 3 sunday duties but somehow he coaxed my sgt into giving him only 1?! i initially had 2 night duties this month. now i've got 3. 1 weekend 2 weekdays. bloody hell. tt sucks. argh.

i really cant stand my chinese colleagues sometimes. damn. i think one hates me? remember the pickup which left the camp with parts of a bridge on it and he thought the parts were stolen? he was the one who told my sgt about it. so much for telling me "its gonna be ok". tts one incident. two. there are 2 sentry posts. he was doing the front one while i was doing the other one. so we went to draw our rifle and rounds. he was holding onto the key and he opened up. so i helped myself and took my rifle and rounds. i left immediately. he was still sitting there slowly drawing his rifle and rounds. soon another colleague came to my sentry post and asked me where's the key? apparently the guy who held onto the key earlier said he passed the key to me? bloody hell. i left earlier than u lor. bastard. the rifle and ammo keys are like so impt? chee beh. bloody malaysian. go back malaysia lah!

yesterday's ic was fucked up. we were all doing 6-7 hours of duty. and he himself did only 2 hours. god. he didnt even do those 2 hours?! so much for fairness my ass. i was kinda unhappy and my face showed it. was supposed to do saikang. i thot cud claim an off day or smth. then can use it to send jem off. happy happy all. then he chose another grp of pple for the saikang when my sgt already said me and other 2 guys are going. ippt for the failures was in the afternoon. he knows it. and yet he sent 2 guys who failed ippt for the saikang. duh. might as well send me right. bloody basket. fucking lazy. he was supposed to come out at 4pm to book pple for leave camp b4 office hours. at 4pm he was happily eating maggi and asked my colleague to book for him. bastard. fucking munjens. just wait till i get my rank and become the ic for the day. not all the chinese are loathsome tho. its just some of them.

met up with the bandmates for dinner on wednesday at newton. was so late cuz of saikang. jem's leaving for canada next tues morning. sigh. and i think what edna said about him leaving malaysia so often and not telling us leaving us wondering makes sense. i still dont feel tt he's going canada lei. hah. anyway meeting him again this weekend. gonna give him a proper goodbye.

singapore idol yesterday. joanna dong didnt get in! sigh. just cuz she did a jazzy number? she's so pretty. candice foo. dunno why she got in. think she's too cheena sounding to do alicia keys. and she made it to top3. what the hell. the malay guy's good looking man. gosh. and dick lee said his rendition of what a wonderful world was messy. it wasnt messy lor. its the same one done by guy sebastian and haizad was just following guy sebastian? stupid basket. dont think ur mr-know-it-all lor. i bet u didnt even know tt version by guy sebastian existed sia.

florence lian's a mean bitch. she said str8ly to this fat contestant that looks are important in the entertainment industry. pls lor. ruben? he won AMI man. guy sebastian? he isnt good looking but he has a large fanbase. kurt nielsen looks like a hobbit but he won the world idol. duh. look at ur co-judges. look at their complexions lah! pocked and all. ugly. duh. loathe the judges. except for ken lim. sorry for dissing him in the past tho. haha. think he's the best of all the judges.

and the voting thingy! i think its crap. its fake. its cheating us of our money! bloody hell. the piano shows are all pre-recorded. how can the results show be live when they wear the same outfits, they have the same audience, same banners even?! duh. moreover the time frame to vote is short also? cmon lah. them being idols i'm sure the sponsors wouldnt save on outfits and all? duh. so fake so fake so fake. rigged results. confirmed lor. i think its more of the judges choices than us. bloody hell.

had a tough time surviving last mth. was just so broke. haha. payday's coming! whew. the shopping flame in me's finally burning again! heh.

ps: mel, we'll plan our _____ soon yeah. haha. keep in touch. lol...

i held the pieces of my soul
i was shattered
and I wanted you to come and make me whole
then I saw you yesterday
but you didn't notice
you just walked away...