hey.. havent been updating cuz i like the thank you list? ha... oh well... can roughly say we've won the battle... heh... staying at my mom's now... to focus on my As k... but revision there hasnt been any better... alrite lah... managed to look thru the other jcs econs essay paper and brainstormed lor... for the econs mock... bloody hell? i thot she'd pick some jc paper sia... but no? all were like her own questions? duhs... i cud onli do 2 qns? the other one... didnt study... so anyhow blabber till 2+ pages? ha... handwriting was super horrible lor? ha... econs mock mcqs were easy tho?! i didnt cheat? got 22/30? tts like quite high for me? not as high as angel lah rite? 26/30? ha... but yeah... it was easy... specimen paper 2003... i wonder whether A levels will be like of the same standard? i hope so ya... but didnt like the DRQ and case study... didnt have anything to write about? bloody hell... oh well... i ponned sch today? like duh? ms tie was like... "i've got a medical appt tmr whoa... do ur own self studies..."... happiness lor? no need to come sch? ha... i think my whole class ponned? yesterday only 4 came? ms tie was like... "whoa... 4 pple? i thot i counted 7 pple whoa..." ha... but she didnt scold lah during the mock... i think she kinda knew? oh well... she was happily eating infront of us while we were doing our mock? no wonder so noisy... ha... anyway... after the mock went to the ramadhan bazaar 2 bus stops away from jj with rozi and angel (aloysius)... damn nice? duh... everything's nice when ur fasting lor? ha... bloody jam... i reached home after break fast time lor? super panic and all... yeah... am at my dad's now since i pon sch mah... but ya... going back to my mom's later... gonna super focus for the As k... so wont update so much... oh man... 11 more days! shucks... =x

sigh... what is happening... its how bloody near to my As! fark it lah... nvm...

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

so goes the song by christina aguilera... "fighter"... yup... am gonna emerge stronger... gonna work hard for the As... gonna work hard... gonna get a good paid job... earn big bucks... am never gonna give her money... bitch. of cuz this is a long term plan... hai? short term plan... do well for As... show her that i can make it... she thinks she can wreak havoc? whatever u bitch. grrr.

thanks mom for always being on my side. thanks to my grannies for being so motivating, always motivating me to study hard. thanks to my tante, ur like a second mom to me. thanks adit for brightening up my days when ur in singapore, remain cute. thanks to my uncle, u've always taken good care of me and my bro without fail when we're in jakarta. thanks tizi, for the prayer u said for me last night, good friends always. thanks chahat and diana and everyone else, u guys have been nice too. thanks edna, u've always been there when i need someone to tok to. thanks angeline for ur addictive laughter. thanks vicky for ur super addictive laughter. thanks jem, love ur brown eyes. thanks zac, i loveeeee ur brown eyes, thanks for everything ya. thanks jeannie for being my good frd since sec1. thanks enci, ur cookies will be so overdued, after As k? thanks clive. thanks siewkim, remain sweet. thanks to my wonderful juniors, continue the jjcsb legacy. thanks xinpei, study hard k. thanks mr leng for bringing the band to a higher standard of musical excellence and ever so entertaining. thanks to my classmates. sisters6 and kelvin, u guys nv fail to make me laugh. thanks diana, my sister, u've been wonderful. thanks to steph, zl and choo, u guys have have been good to me. thanks to sarah. thanks to the guys too for always gaying around with me. thanks ms tie, we'll shine for u ya, its onli a matter of time. thanks ms lang for being so patient with my class, we'll shine for u too. thanks mery, remain pretty. thanks jesmund, u've been nice and all to me, appreciate it. thanks kimpeng. thanks garrie, future bunkmates ya. thanks to everyone else. the list's too long to mention. but u knoe i love u all too. thanks dad and ur wife. i'm so gonna emerge stronger after this ordeal.

christina aguilera - the voice within

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within...

hey... edna's a bad girl today... i'm a bad boy too? shucks... i happily went out to town today? hai... blame it on my mom? ha... no lah... just accompanied her lor... cuz i knoe i wun get to accomplish much at home also? but i brot my notes along lah... so can read them on the car? heh... ok... she parked the car at this carpark next to paragon? then needa go up this slope to take the ticket before entering... my mom's a new driver? like duh? so she like misaimed and stopped the car some distance away from the ticket dispenser lah... being the small person she is... then somehow the car died on her? damn tension.. behind got car all? keep horning? then due to gravity (lolz...) the car went down the slope lah.. and the car behind was like so near? so my mom got so mad lah... shud give allowance? i also got mad... showed the bitchy driver the "i'm a new driver" sign... duh? hmph. keep horning. u were once new lor. i dunno how to describe the sign lah.. but yeah.. its for new drivers... "i'm a new driver" sign ah... lolz... yah... then finally can lor... then went to taka cuz she wanted to draw her money... then to far east for lunch... then she went to cut her hair... then this hairstylist said i accompanied her got motive? wth! wad do u knoe lor... burn ur hair then u knoe ah... i caught him putting compact powder or smth? dun pretend to face ur back to me lor... saw it lor... hmph... yeah... then went to ck tangs... looked at the mens dept... nothing prommish... bought a piece of luggage for the uk trip... then went to paragon... ok... then we went to sisley... my mom didnt like wanna go in? but we still went in? so i went to look thru the mens clothes lah... just when i picked out this particular shirt she said it goes well with my vest and pants for prom? so... ok? ha... i think its nice also... better than wearing a white shirt... and yes... she paid for it... hee... save money also? ha... then altered the length of sleeves... can collect next week onli... cant wait to try everything on... hehe... left my belt and shoes onli... oh yes... tt wasnt my motive of going out with my mom? didnt mean to see also wad... we were like apprehensively going into sisley also? yaya... nvm... then went to do summore shopping... bot this grey denim-like hp pouch from pssb? my mom was trying on some clothes lah... the salesgirls like attitude me lor? like wad am i doing here sorta thing? nv see my mom ah blindos... hmph... anyway... the pouch was nice? i was seriously hoping it wud fit my ipod? actually can! just tt the opening too small? hai... sad... so nice... then i didnt check the new hp pouch... so the pssb label abit senget? aiyah... sad... realised it onli when i reached home lor? yeah... then went home lor... then slacked a while... then went out to buy dinner with my mom... the bitch's out. nv even cook lunch/dinner? so my mom pitied my dad? asked him whether he wanted anything since she's buying dinner for us... he damn dao? wah lao... dusnt pay to be kind! he must be blinded. urgh. oh well... i needa mug my early morning off to atone for my bad boyishness? err... lolz... and yes... i lost money again... grr...

hey... its been 5 days since i last updated? heh... sorry fellow bloggers? ha... anyway... the week wasnt too good... tues was like the fire starter lor? bloody hell... yes. i want her out of the house. it'll be so much peaceful lor. seriously sia... bitch. total bitch. i was tearing on the bus and mrt all k? tt bad. urgh... i have nothing to lose... not scared of anything... come try me lor. heh. had tuition in the afternoon... was kinda tired also... went sakae sushi on wednesday... yes.. like happily as if after As? then while waiting for my frds at woodlands mrt, this woman approached me... asked me to do some cpf survey... asked me whether i'm above 21!? no? look at my dressing lor... hmph... anyway! sakae sushi didnt have fried gyoza! damn sad... hai... oh well... borrowed jem's clay aiken's debut album... didnt knoe my mom's a fellow claymate too? ha... she ordered me to burn his cd for her instantly? ha... i think real player's damn cool... dl it pls? it rips cds.. and burns cds at high speeds? so cool... heh... anyway... thursday was a great day! ha... first period was maths tut... second period break... so we went to eat... hanee was saying i look like scholar cai from holland v? like wad the? sisters6 + kelvin all happily agreed? happily laughing all... pls lor... blonde hair? no lor... old? definitely not... but i played along lah... was being the food critic and all... in the end all ate nasi lemak except for diana? ha... seriously its damn nice... must try it k? even a non-food critic will find it nice... heh... it was like damn nice breakfast lor... rozi kept making everyone laugh by doing kelvin's actions? ha... funny funny... had consultation later in the afternoon... ms tie was damn nice lor? i heard her shouting to the previous consultation group? yet she was so nice to us? she suggested going to the concourse study benches... so we went... then an hour into consultation she was like... "whoa... so hot here whoa..." ha... damn funny... first time lor? so nice... shall study hard for her k... then today also she very nice... first period was econs tut... not many brot econs tys... she didnt scold lor? during lect also she didnt scold... nice... we shall take studying as a labour of love ya ms tie... nites...

hey man... i think my hair's way too thin? so dead... how am i gonna go sch tmr lor... snip snip and snip summore lor... hmph... why did i even go out just now... malu of the yr ah... went out to study at jtc mac... mel came later... an hour into studying... i was already so restless lor? was doing econs... got so bored lor? then wanna do maths... lazy? do physics... too many qns? hai... productivity was way low today... MPP ya? LDR all? and thanks angel for scaring me... ha... thanks for telling me the calc can be used to find probability also... ha... 20+ days. i seriously need to buck up... we didnt tok much... dunno why... see ya

hey.. sally chua? nice? pls... i take tt back? ha! idiot lor... she said i should tok more about health? but tt is not my stand wad! then how.. contradicting of the year... hmph. forget it lah. i knoe u darent go against LTC lest she scolds u again and ms tie hearing her scolding u rite? hmph. i'm ponning gp! tts it. on thursday... double gp... i stupidly went for gp eventho onli 3 other pple went? why? bcuz i wanted my essay back. grr... if i'm ever gonna get an A for gp i'm nv gonna be thankful to jjc gp dept man. period. super imposed period. the week was ok lah... had 4 period of econs in all yesterday! my god. was so bloody shagged lor? my god... these days are super sianz! hai... stress... totally slack today... told u i cant study at home. lolz. oh well... gonna go out to study anyway... oh yes... my hands becomig itchier after not betting for 1 mth... so gonna bet today... gonna go for germany... plspls ya... i can do loads with tt extra cash... heh... nights

heyhey... its tuesday liaoz... more than ever closer to the As ya... i was looking forward to getting back physics papers yesterday cuz mr chew said he'd return it to us then... he happily forgot our tutorial time slot lor? and happily said he hadnt finish marking? wah lao.. monday say monday lah! hmph.. false hopes? i dun like it... anyway... mr mak (whu marked p2.. ha.. mr mak marked? lolz) returned us our p2... i did damn bad? everyone else? onli 2 passers? hai... then the phy dept wants to moderate p1?! for wad sia! moderate mcqs? like wtf? still say their moderation is accurate... like real... got back physics p3 today... not too good either... sigh... shant skip phy tuition anymore liaoz... hahaha... anyway... i smsed mrs chua this this afternoon "mrs chua... hafizan here. have you read thru my essay? if u havent, can u please do? i think i deserve better for content." happily smsed her tt... wanted to period her name? but didnt lah... ok... then she didnt reply till 10 mins ago?! super nice?! she was like "will read it more thoroughly and let you know, k?" like so nice? hai... then i smsed her "thank you... good night" and she even reciprocated my good night?! like so nice! am feeling damn guilty... sorry sorry? haiz... makes me more determined to achieve my aim! ha... nights~

oh.. productive day it was? kinda at least? ha... i blogged at 2.23pm right? slacked a lil while more... was already lying on my bed at 3pm? then checked my hp... mel msged me? asking me whether i wanted to study with her at JE mac? ok... honestly i almost rejected her? ha... on my bed already lei.. wad u expect? ha... i still went in the end... reached at 4.15... quite fast actually ya... then did like maths there lor... then didnt realise alot of pple were there also? as in jjcians? yeah... then i didnt realise singer was there too? stunned of the yr? was looking down... then saw this pair of feet... then turned behind... it was him? ha... not tt i recognise him by his feet or wad lah... but yeah... i didnt even see him going to the toilet sia... super friendly? waved hi and goodbye to me? ha... also, i didnt see angel going to the toilet! gosh.. wads with me... engrossed in maths? or was it just my saintly appearance? wearing saints pe tee mah... haha... misleading appearance? ha... did like 4-5 hours of maths... then in between wanted to do econs... bahh? no? sorry? heh... tired tired... kinda productive... finished like 7 maths revision tests... 2 more to go... heh.. shall study there more often ya... oh yes... for a moment i kinda forgot wad day it was? ha... lost in maths... lolz... nights~

heyhey... i went town again yesterday? like happiness of the yr? as if As are so long over? oh well... went with cha and ib... met joni on the bus... smiled at her... shortly after tt she smsed me "your gf ah... :)"... happily? no? heh... oh yes... there was this bus conductor lah... then check check our ezlink... he came to this guy... chinese blondie... late teens or wad... he was shocked at wad he saw? me too? ha! his ezlink was tt of an indian pri sch boy sia?! lolz... like wad happened lor? cudnt help smiling? ha... like so lacking conviction? duhs... went town... i got myself this niceeeeeeee tee... thanks cha? belated pressie? super? its so nice... its black? not white anymore? i think my first black tee? ha... excluding band tees... and it goes well with my unworn stussy berms? no matching top u see? ha... oh yes... edna... cudnt find ur evita peroni hairband? went to isetan scotts... then there was this hugo boss sale... super super sale... saw this real nice tee... $169... the discount read "up to 70% off" so i was like... whoa... super bargain... but no? its already discounted? but its damn nice... oh well... lolz... then went home at like 5+... ran for the bus cuz its empty? lolz... damn shagged? dunno why... trips to orchard always make me tired and all? heh.. went home... then shortly after tt my mom picked me and my bro up... went to JE cuz my bro wanted to buy some game... then went to bt batok for dinner... then got an sms from angel... she said she saw mel at the JE mac? and i was there 10 mins ago? stunned? i cud have studied with her for like 2mins? ha... just a small world lor... had pita for dinner... niceeee.... oh well... slacked the night away when i ought to be doing smth productive? ok... so today's sunday... just met zac aka mr fashion consultant... lolz... went to exchange our fashion mags? all in the quest for prom clothes? ha... wanted to wear this quik tee... but found my saints pe tee... so i wore it lor? this is the 2nd time wearing it? the first time was in perth (didnt dare to wear it in sg? so perth?) when i met my jc band fest frd? stunned... yeah... and zac happily thot my vest is those formal kind with buttons and all? sorry ah... but no? i'm no father lor... ha... ok then... lets look forward to a productive day.. hopefully...~

hey man... i thot i'd get back physics paperS today? but got back practical paper onli? was thinking i'd fail... cuz my calculated g was found to be 120 when its about 9.81? ah bish... got 28/34... not bad? error carried forward here and there? tts the good thing about physics man... yeah... onli got back tt lor... saddening man... cant wait? oh yes... ms tie called me a muddlehead today! bitch lor. i got E for econs. like hello? eventho its low its still good being under ur tyranny sia! basket. forget it... short day... 11.15? duh... went home with sharon... she was telling me some baskets think tt we're together just bcuz we go home together tt sorta thing? pls lah... i'm at cck and she's at woodlands... on the way lor? blame urselves for not staying at woodlands lah! idiot... dun anyhow say... i like someone else? ha... whatever... kinda slacked the whole afternoon... hogged the tv too... hehe... watched holland v... xiaohui got knocked down by situ liang and died lor... wah lao! saddening of the yr lor... all in the blind pursuit of money lor? hmph... then watched the ford supermodels finals or smth? seriously lah... all cannot make it lah... the best of the worst (ha...) contestant 18 lor... number 20! body beautiful! BAHHHHHHHHH! my ass lah... ur teeth's protruding like wad lor? some ape sia... no boobs also... pls lor... hai... and she got into top3?! i damn stunned... thank god 2nd runner up? ha... the colleen got 1st runner up... damn sad... the malay one... nora got the title... i think if u send local girls to international competitions confirm cannot win one lor... outstanding abit lah... see the market demand? like hello? indian girls are always pretty ya? anyway... yeah... think i'm gonna overnight and do maths... i think i quite like maths? ha... easy to score with enuff practice lor... mel told me she was clearing her drawer and found this card with some poem i wrote? my god... so malu! dun say already... those were the days... ha... nites~

hey... sucky day i had? albeit short... first period was maths tutorial? damn thump thump of the yr? got back both papers for maths... 56.5 for paper1... 58.5 for paper2... overall 57.5... kinda missed C? like duh? oh well... my class did kinda bad for maths? oh well... my trigo equations? happily did 3/4 page? happily 1 mark sia! wth... ms lang damn funny? out of nowhere a sorry appeared on my script? ha... oh well... got back econs too... 45... my essay paper... 27/75? like happily? she gave me 5/25 for qn6?! wah lao... she didnt even knoe wad i was writing about lor? chinese yuan devaluates... means chinese workers are cheap... so there's an inflow of US dollars... demand for yuan increases rite? demand curve shifts rightwards... ultimately the yuan appreciates? well tts how i see it at least? she said "you obviously dont understand the phrase 'undervalued yuan pegged to the us dollar'"... like hello? i knoe wads undervalued yuan? as a result of the weak yuan, those events happen leading to an appreciation of the yuan?! WTH! we can either accept or reject the premise of the argument raised in the qn wad.. as long as got economic basis? sigh.. sad... not fair lor... oh well... apparently there's a moderation of 5 marks... so i got E lor... D according to A level standard and other jcs? weird jj. anyway... yes... tts unlucky case number 1... number 2... my gp essay! BAHHHHHHHH! i got 22/50 for my essay?! 10/30 for my content? shit it lah lydia tan chia. i wrote almost 8 pages (leaving a line) of content and u think i'm irrelevant? i beg to differ tho ur the HOD. fark it lah... my transition paragraph was somewhere in between the 3rd page... she happily stopped marking there and was highlighting thereafter? WTH! wad do u call tt! and u gave me 10/30 for content? pls lah. i'm 90% sure i didnt go out of track. i demand a re-mark! good tt the scripts for paper1 are now back with sally chua... hopefully she'll read? if she isnt, i'm gonna complain anyway. i mean.. its like... u knoe u wrote something... and u shudnt fare too bad? its like... if u knoe u wrote shit, u knoe ur gonna fail kinda thing... but NOT in this case? i knew wad i was writing... and i wasnt expecting a fail? shit... u think gimme 12/20 for language i'm contented ah! NO! hell no. my frds got 12 too and i can easily spot grammatical mistakes lah? hai. suck it. got 28.5 for p2... tt was kinda ok... except for summary and aq... i was aiming 30s for my essay? to get a B4 at least? shit it lah. not saying tt A band students must do well, but this is sheer injustice sia. wth... i'm gonna type out my essay or smth or maybe post it here and tell me wad u feel. argh. mel was telling me... "Rem elizabeth chong? even latty didnt agree with her marking? Ya... It was prelims too. Ultimately. This is just part of the journey, yet to reach the destination". yes... she was a victim during sec4 prelims... marked unjustly by the hod of english, eliz chong... mr latty was our sec4 english tutor... in the end mel got a1 ya... shit it. i'm beginning to think this is some case of racial discrimination? yes... i'm so positive tt i didnt write irrelevantly lah k? hai... didnt go for phy tuition today... kinda pointless when i havent prepared myself... havent gotten back physics either? tmr i think. and shit my brothers frds. stop using my stuffs without asking for my permission. like my ipod? pls lah. and one stinko one even laid on my bed?! fark it lah. think ur house ah. i am not gonna sleep there today. argh. hai. bye. i'm more than ever determined to achieve my distinction for GP. watch out. hmph.

hey man... i'm just so bored? its like... incurable boredom ya edna? hai... since last night lor? totally hate tt feeling man... supposed to go wild and all and there i was feeling the pangs of boredom? pangs.. ok lah... abit kwa zhang? ha... oh well... it got so bored tt i'm blogging now? haha... sorry? lolz... anyway... i think i've won the battle... but i still think i'm not satisfied? oh well... my mom called adit today... and told him she bot a new car... so he asked wad colour izzit... and she told him red... he was like "yeddddddd?" ha... so cute... he likes red? ha... i miss him... he's coming on dec17th... so i can onli enjoy him for 2 days? sad man... anyway... phy p5 was crap lah? i anyhow drew the pressure gauge? with 2 antennae? like wth... sigh... i finished damn early? like anyhow do mah... cant wait for the paper to end? then rushed home... slacked a while... went to town with jos, angel and sharon... oh yes... apparently kelvin met with an accident while cycling? ha... he has trouble wearing pants... ouch? and happily nv come for phy p5... huiyee also? happily job interview lor... oh yes... ms tie requested to meet us after our paper... ok... so she gave us our new timetable? not bad... all before 1.30? fri.. 11.15? ha... then she wanted to tok to all her econs students... she scolded us lor? our results and all? not enuff time whoa... but throughout she scolding she wasnt looking at us lei? maybe cuz on our side was onli my class? oh yes.. b4 tt we were making ourselves comfy by sitting down... she was like... "whoa... sitting whoa... -chuckles-" ha... happy? why ah... izzit bcuz we did well for econs? ha... right! oh well... i slacked the whole of today? sadness... tt bored lor? hai... dunno wad else to say... shud be getting results soon i think... oh well... oh yes! i read this article in the papers 2 days back or smth? about the deteriorating standard of english in jcs? the paper told 100+ students from 4 jcs to write essays? and like major grammatical and spelling errors were spotted? my god... i think jj's one of those 4? then jjc are previllage? ha... tt was on purpose of cuz? duh... ha... nites...